Have you ever....

Have you ever watched a movie that made you think?  Have you ever questioned something that should never be questioned?  Have you ever felt all alone in a crowded room?  Have you ever faced the fear of ridicule from expressing your honest feelings?  Have you ever wondered about the validity of a friendship?  Well.....  Have you?

Yesterday was one of those days when you really so not have as much to do as opposed to the free time to let your mind wander?  I have a very random pattern for those days where you actually have some time to think.  What makes taking the time to dig deeper than the surface so interesting, is that when a person has a fair amount of alone time, their insecurities make their way through the muck and mire of the mundane.  Really, is it really possible that people have tendencies to be insecure when they should embrace their individuality?  Or are there a special group of people that find it easier to tap into areas of the mind that people prefer to keep locked away?

While it is perfectly understandable that everyone has a moment of uncertainty over things, is it possible that this uncertainty makes us more impermeable to true expression?  Or is this something that becomes a life lesson that we are required to always be keeping true feeling "close to the chest", due to less than favorable support or understanding of others?  While I know of quite a few stories of how people are categorized in various stages of acceptance, it makes me wonder if people's acceptance is more vital than self worth.

Think about it.  People are reactive beings.  Actions taken against them, no matter how minuscule, can create such a huge impact upon their ability to act or react.  While it is true that the number of best friends a person has is a small number compared to the run-of-the-mill friends or acquaintances we have in our life.  We categorize levels of tolerance to people we know, we categorize what type of friendship each person we have in our life from co-workers to clients to people we see on the street.  There are times our decision of what we think of a person is only based on first impressions or what we manage to find on the surface.  Respect does not come cheap, nor does trust.  Understanding, on the other hand, really costs nothing, but time.  Sadly, perceptions that were never looked into deeper become the deciding factor if a person is worthy to be a part of your life.  I guess the only way to really fully understand is with going beyond the surface and allow expression to be the subject studied.

Is quantity valued over quality?  Is the desire to have more a sign of greed or is it resulting from lack of self worth?  Is being loved by another your foundation to self worth?  Is acceptance more important than understanding?  Is the value you hold upon yourself based upon only what you can give instead of receive?  Do others make you feel insecure?  Are you in denial?

Smoke and mirrors seem to be so well played by people.  I just wonder....  Have you ever thought about this?

Thanks for reading...  Have a great day !!!